Anger and Frustration

I used to be sad
But now i'm angery
It's like I cant control it
These emotion they overtake me
I dont like violence
I dont like conflict
But each day it becomes harder
To keep in the frustration
Even as i write this
the anger it dwells
In my head
In my heart
Even in my soul
I just, I just
I dont KNOW!

Look at me!

Look at me in the eyes
I want you to see my pain
This disappoint inside
How can i trust you after you did such a thing

You know what you did
I hope you know it's wrong
Dont turn your eyes down
Look at me wen i speak

What now you now it's wrong
After the deed is done
Your a disappointment to mee
You cant even look at me
LOOK AT ME!!
LOOK AT ME!!

Reciting of Cold

please give me some guidance, i need some badly...

What now?

Could i be wrong
Was everything a lie
What am i supposed to belive
Everthing is seemgly unclear to me

The words that once were clear
Now blurr when read again
I dont understand what is happening
For some reason I find that i'm scarred

To have loss this ablity
Would be a great tradgy
Would leave me empty
The words would no longer be

Everything

I had cut my hair
And changed my look
But i still remmber
Everything...

That night
The events leading up
Everything as clear as bell
Still sits in my head

I thought it would vanish
That i would forget
I was wrong
I want to forget

Things still hang in the air
Things forgotten
Things left unsaid
Things that i will never forget

I just know that i am here
Those things happened
Nothing could have stopped it
Even though i want to forget
Everything

Burden

They want me to go
But then they tell me i cant
I just want to make them happy
Cant they see that

I used to hate them all the time
But now all i see is the pain i cause them
I'm a burden to them and to all
I cant seem to do anything right

I cant remmber the last time
the hugged me for no reason
Talked to me about nothing
Told me "It's going to be alright"

Where are they when i need them the most
Am i just a bug to you after all
Was everybody right?
Am I really just a burden?

When i write..

When i write
Even if just a word...
i feel as though i'm alive
In a world so cruel
Writing brings me joy
I find hope and comfort in what i write
Even though other people may not
I try and try
I write and write
But now
When i write...
I feel sad and alone
As though i'm the only one
No one i know ever saying a word
No "That's great"
or "I love it"
Should i continue...
When I write....
I feel...
As if i have finally found a place in this world

Good Day

The sky is blue
The air is warm
The sun bright
The grass green
The wind gentle
Like a mother's touch
This day couldn't be better
I feel hopeful inside
Even though my life is upside down
Feeling grounded for the first time
I look to sky and i shout
"The Future is MINE!"